over the past 18mths, i have grown to love this class to bits...to the extent that i actually genuinely look forward to goin to school ...sad then dat its all comin to an end with the end of our A Levels...
ironically, I would have never expected this at the start of our time together...i was still alot closer to my orientation group -zoukas...we had a ball of a time since the very first day of school.....and this class had some erm interesting characters to say the least....this dude from my secondary sch who's like terrorizing all the girls in the class till they're frightened to death....this guy who looks like a drug addict and doesn seem to speak much...bunch of cedar girls who're way too noisy - and this is comin from someone who likes cedarians...a fatso loudmouth with jokes dat no one laffs at...this girl who's my pal from 1st 3 mths but i got a feeling she thinks i like her and dats potentially problematic...
18 mths later...the pervy guy and the drug addict and a few other guys are among my best frens, i love the noisy cedar gals, the guai ones are entertaining as well....everything was perfect, cept the loudmouth was supremely outcasted and the girl who thinks i like her made my life a living hell at times with her reactions...but yea by and large, fantastic...endless nonsense and crap and teasing and slacking and all things fun
at the crossroads now arent we...same questions that were asked in pri 6 and sec 4 - are we gonna stay in touch? is this gam-ness and bonds forged transient and temporary, to be left behind as we move on with our lives?
onli time will tell....
Illusion - July 2010 ; Reality - July 2010 : desist delusion
ive always felt that reality is slightly tilted towards pessimism rather than optimism...the world doesnt revolve around me, so the stars are hardly gonna align themselves for me too often
delusions obviously have no place when one wants to face reality...false facts that are resistant to reason and actual fact...
everyone has some delusions...some more some less....they provide a welcome distraction, some hope when u lack motivation, makes u think that 3 steps later is gonna be just fine (when its not) so that u are more likely to at least take the 1st and 2nd step....ive been reliant on delusions all my life....things that were never likely to happen but while i wasnt 100% sure, dreaming abt it sure gave me a lift...
i was a pro footballer, a pro wrestler...a celeb?!....i got the girl im not supposed to get! ...im the perfect teacher...i never disappt my frens...never made a mistake....never got embarrassed...
the concept of HH is a gimmick almost...given my perpetual facade over many matters, never emo, over-rational, couldnt care less and treating life as way too simple...peeling away the layers of the gimmick leaves behind a constant grappling between delusions and reality and there never is truly a clear winner....i dun want a clear winner usually anyway, life sucks when its all black and white...
so, im hardly a delusional person...im too much of a realist if anything...but for the next few weeks, i need a clear winner...without a shadow of a doubt, without a tinge of ambiguity....
a clear clear winner....
i need reality to guide me in every move n in every thought and to remove delusion absolutely...
or i shall be in trouble...
the battle has begun...
delusions obviously have no place when one wants to face reality...false facts that are resistant to reason and actual fact...
everyone has some delusions...some more some less....they provide a welcome distraction, some hope when u lack motivation, makes u think that 3 steps later is gonna be just fine (when its not) so that u are more likely to at least take the 1st and 2nd step....ive been reliant on delusions all my life....things that were never likely to happen but while i wasnt 100% sure, dreaming abt it sure gave me a lift...
i was a pro footballer, a pro wrestler...a celeb?!....i got the girl im not supposed to get! ...im the perfect teacher...i never disappt my frens...never made a mistake....never got embarrassed...
the concept of HH is a gimmick almost...given my perpetual facade over many matters, never emo, over-rational, couldnt care less and treating life as way too simple...peeling away the layers of the gimmick leaves behind a constant grappling between delusions and reality and there never is truly a clear winner....i dun want a clear winner usually anyway, life sucks when its all black and white...
so, im hardly a delusional person...im too much of a realist if anything...but for the next few weeks, i need a clear winner...without a shadow of a doubt, without a tinge of ambiguity....
a clear clear winner....
i need reality to guide me in every move n in every thought and to remove delusion absolutely...
or i shall be in trouble...
the battle has begun...
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